Why I Do What I Do

When I sit down each week to write this blog, on average I have about three ideas of what to write. I'll start to write one thing, then delete it, try another, delete that, return to the first, try a third, go back to the second, and the process continues until one of two things happens. One is that I find a topic or a story that feels "right," attribute that feeling to the nudge of the Holy Spirit, and go with it. The other thing is that I look at the clock and say, "I have another appointment in thirty minutes! I've got to finish this!" And so I write what fits into the time frame.

Today just happens to be one of those days when I literally do have another appointment in 30 minutes, but I don't want to use this time to draw an analogy or share a story or elaborate upon a song that I heard on the radio this morning. Instead, I'd like to take time to share from this pastor's heart of why I do what I do.

The summer before I started college, I went to a summer program for students interested in pre-medicine. I traveled to Boston and with students from around the country toured medical schools, heard from physicians, and visited hospitals. The group that I was in spent a day at Harvard Medical School and had a rare opportunity. The staff had a human heart in one their labs, and each of us were able to hold that heart in our hands. We put on our gloves, and one at a time the professor handed us the heart. It was one of the most awesome experiences of my life. I left with grand plans of becoming a cardiologist after seeing firsthand the intricacies of the body's life-giving organ.

Obviously, I am not a cardiologist now. But I am still a doctor of the heart. As a pastor, I'm constantly tending to the needs of the heart: relationships, death, grief, marriage, healing, repentance, and most of all --God's place in all these matters of the heart. It's dangerous. It's delicate. It's dramatic. It's demanding. It's something that I don't take lightly. At the same time, every part of this vocation abounds with awe, from trying to interpret God's Word on Sunday morning to searching for words to ask for healing with someone in a stark hospital room. And my "business partner" in this vocation is the Great Physician, who is the one mending the broken heart, cleansing the sinful heart, and pumping life into each of our hearts

We don't have to be ordained ministers to work with the heart. Each of us in our vocations can find the awe and joy amid the difficult dramas, and I pray that each of you will work daily with the Physician to heal, to help, and to make whole. I love what I do. And I pray that you will, too. Thanks for opening your hearts to me, as I open mine to you, and we all open our hearts to the one who makes us whole.

grace, peace, love, and good stuff to each of you--
Pastor Darian